Dancing

He once told me angrily that it wasnt good to always drink and dance. I, on the other hand, felt that dancing is the remedy, the more frequent I party the more you know that I am not doing so well.

But when I had my first hour of dance learning, dancing was not a way to get out of a bad mood this time, it filled me in. While I danced I lost the feeling of emptiness and indifference and I felt inward calm and saturated. I could no longer judge, I could no longer be angry and I could no longer seperate myself from life and so the feeling of numbness faded away and I felt fully alive for an hour.